So I’m stopping my negative progression while it still hasn’t affected me irreparably. I’m not sure that last sentence is grammatically correct. Bertrand Russell really said it right in a little video I got. I’m feeling anxious about getting my approximately 900 dollars back from Garden State Apartments. Once I get this evidence I need to present it to my lawyer. I’m getting so anxious about going through this whole process. It’s 500 dollars. I make that in two weeks with less effort. The point is that they shouldn’t get away with this, right? If I don’t get the entire fund back it doesn’t matter. The point is that they go to court and go through the process for being unfair. Ahh. I have stuff going on already. I just don’t want to deal with this. Apathy is the number one cause of dominance. I have to care. Blah.
Anyway, focusing on school again. Reading more. Watching less TV and trying to be cleaner. I should work out. 🙂 It’s not that hard to be a great person. I just need to stop being apathetic and stop being lazy.
Difficult questions. Do i want to stay in the band? No. I’m gaining nothing from it now. I want to start saving up for a car. I want to start attending art performances. I want to connect with CS and Mathematics community. If I ever wanted to do something with music there is always Lucas. I want to know what I want and I want to fight to attain what I want. I need to be smart and prepared for this. I need to have all the angles figured out and I can’t let myself be defeated. I need to move.
I want to be reliable first and foremost. All other things stem from that. I want to do well in school second. I want to be entrepreneurial, clever, in my subjects. Then I want to be as intelligent as I can be. Then, I want to focus on my community. Then I want to be cultured.
This way I will be sure to work to my full extent at what I want. I will get some money by producing something. I will be smart and pass my intelligence genetically and behaviorally. And I will be helping my community out, tremendously.
Discipline I have to develop that skill. and Responsibility. Two things that make someone reliable.
That’s that. I started working on school but I have to work on being better in general. I will attain it because most people attain what they for work for. I’m no exception. Till next time